Is it the economy? Is it my lack of drive? I'm not really sure why I have yet to find employment. There are many factors, such as the two I just listed, and also one big, fat looming fact: I don't know what to do. Indecisiveness. Yes, that is truly my middle name (yes, I know it is TRULY Ann, but it should be Indecisiveness). I have the hardest time making up my mind about certain things. I often wonder how people can take the easy route and not examine every angle for all it's worth. At times, I envy those people. They make a decision (right or not) and take action. I, on the other hand, debate and over think everything. Sure, it's great when you have a big decision you have to make--until you actually do have to make the decision. That's where I panic. Generally, I jump off the proverbial boat, as one might say. I grab my lifejacket and go.
Alas, I'm reaching the ripe old age (HAH) of 22, and now is past the time that certain life decisions should have been made. Now, I must face them.
I THINK I want to be a teacher. I would love to say that I know that is my calling and it is what I want to do, but unfortunately, I'm just not sure. I'm attempting to get into graduate school right now, and I can't help thinking that I'm using the additional schooling as a way to hide out for a few more years. I honestly hope not, because that's a pretty expensive hideout.
I just finished an application for a job I don't think I am qualified for. One good thing is that I am at least excited to do it. Unfortunately, it's also I job that I have a feeling has quite a few candidates.
2009, you are a tough cookie.
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