- I like to write.
- I like to read my own writing, much like one likes to hear his/her own voice.
- I'm bored, and homework isn't tickling my fancy.
- I felt like thinking about something other than the great act of democracy, election day, that occurred several hours ago.
- As I lay under my Ralph Lauren comforter, wearing Prada glasses, using a Macbook, I felt I could do something that would make me just a little whiter.
Numbers one through four are almost definitely true. Maybe five is something I should look deeper into my subconscious about.
The weather in Ohio has been quite warm the last few days. I'm really enjoying it. It's made the gloomy month of November a lot less gloomy. It has actually been quite pleasant, and I've been running around outside trying to enjoy the last bits of nature, before bitter cold takes that away from me.
I am officially spending winter quarter in Ecuador. Thinking about it is both frightening and exciting. I wish I could explain that better, because I feel like I'm comparing it to riding a roller coaster with my previous sentence. I'm excited to learn Spanish, first and foremost. I think it will be extremely beneficial for my future. Plus, I have always wanted to become more fluent in Spanish. It has been a dream of mine for a really long time. I'm also ready for a change of scenery. Ohio has been good to me for almost 22 years, but I haven't seen much else. I want and need to experience another part of the world. However, amidst all my excitement, I'll be completely honest, I am more scared than anything. Amongst many, many things I am afraid to leave this place (Ohio State, Ohio, America). It's not the place I'm afraid to leave behind, but the people here. It's a big step, for sure. I'm also very nervous about living with a family I don't know, going to school and living in a country where I don't understand the language and spending my free time with people I will meet only 3 or 4 times prior to the trip.
I have prayed though. I prayed a lot before I found out whether or not I was going. I believed that either way, God would let what needed to happen, happen. I need to keep that in mind, especially since I have done a lot of questioning, especially questioning the seemingly inconvenient timing (for many reasons). So, even though I'm a little frightened, I know that this was meant to happen. I keep telling myself that God knows best and this happening for a reason. Just trying to live by the "everything happens for a reason" motto, while realizing that God sees the whole picture, even when I can't.
Well, seeing as this blog has been all about me, and probably hasn't affected anyone outside of myself, I'm going to go to be and discontinue the rest. Good night!
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